What I want to know is "why in the hell wasn't I watching Breaking Bad when it was on AMC?????" Oh Em GEE - is this show AMAZING. I know, I'm SO behind the limelight, but I am in awe of just HOW AMAZING the show really is. Saturday I watched all of Season 1. Sunday I almost got through Season 2, but our stupid AT&T Uverse Internet server was down. The only plus to that was I was able to watch the Dodger game since it was on ESPN. Had my Netflix not gone down, I would have finished Season 2 without a doubt. As much as Breaking Bad had peen publicized, it never dawned on me it was such a great show. Bryan Cranston is PERFECT in his role as Walter White. Complimenting Bryan's role is Aaron Paul as Jesse Pinkman. I have a soft spot for Jesse, as he reminds me of some family members I have who have/had the very same issues. I can only imagine what the next 4 Seasons have in store for them. I just know I am grateful for Netflix and Chromecast, as long as my internet server doesn't crash again. Speaking of the Dodger Game, poor Hanley Ramirez! First Ramirez was hit in the shoulder by Carlos Martinez in the fourth inning, (which Clayton Kershaw had his back by hitting Matt Holliday - Good Job Kersh!). THEN he gets a Trevor Rosenthal fastball straight on the wrist! It's a Cardinals conspiracy I tell you! In the playoffs last season, Joe Kelly hit Hanley in the ribs with a 95 MPH fastball giving him a cracked rib. I know the Cardinals are one of the best teams in the NL but quit playing dirty you jerks! Tell you what, let's play nice and you can have Matt Kemp for Yadier Molina. Agreed? First of all, today is a complete turn around compared to yesterday! A lot of factors contributed to the why, but I am so happy today it's surreal. YAYMEAMY! This week, the fantasy football league I have been in for the last 3 seasons "My Wife Hates This Sh*t" opened up the new season. Right off the bat our teams started the shit talking. I fucking LOVE it. I don't know why I love to write so much, but I could write a post in there the size of a novel if they'd let me! I am not a talker. Not in the slightest. But put me behind a keyboard and a place to write my opinions, feelings, concerns, nonsense and shit talking and it's ON. I will admit I am more comfortable in the company of men than women. I have my good girlfriends, of course, but I'm not a shopper, not a gabber, not a "let's do lunch" kind of girl. I love the camaraderie a group of guys have, standing around a BBQ or in front of a great sports game on TV with a drink in their hand talking bullshit. It's just who I am. There is no drama. There is an upfront demeanor men have where hey can say things like "Dammit you look like fucking shit today, what the hell happened to you?" with a response of "FUCK YOU". LOL! You tell that to a woman and she'll get her panties in a bunch and tell you how rude you are. It's just all in fun. Don't take it so serious. I still am a girlie-girl with full make-up, jewelry and the occasional stilettos, but I can talk like a drunken sailor (especially when I AM drunk LOL) and shit talk with the best of the guys. I can hold my own and am just as passionate about my fantasy football team as the men are. As a matter of fact, I take my team very seriously. I am glued to ESPN Red Zone on Sundays (I get a kick out of Andrew Siciliano's commentating too) with my trusty Chromebook intensely following my stat tracker. I am screaming with joy when my players score a TD and screaming obscenities when my QB just threw an interception. I am a Wife, but I fucking LOVE This Sh*t!!! 42 days until my draft...tick tock tick tock First & Girl is gonna ROCK! Last night I stumbled upon a movie I never had seen before. It had already started, but I was instantly intrigued by the way the director shot the scenes. And it starred Jared Leto. The movie was "Requiem for a Dream" and it was released in 2000. After watching the movie, I was left feeling very somber, yet very grateful.
When I was a teenager from the age of 15 - 18 I had a drug addiction. Thankfully I never got into the extremely hard drugs like heroin, but I did my fair share of illegal, very addicting, life wrecking drugs. If I hadn't stopped, however, I know in my heart I'd have succumbed to the harder drugs. The movie depicts the probable consequences of drug addiction. It is ugly. It is frightening. It is so very sad. Some of us are the lucky ones who come out clean and never look back. This movie is a must see for any person who is addictive. It doesn't just cover a heroin addict. It covers addiction to cocaine and pharmaceuticals and what lengths people go to get their drugs. Ellen Burstyn does a fantastic job of a depressed, lonely old woman addicted to her prescription drugs. What happens to her should make any Pharmaceutical company and over-prescribing Doctor ashamed. Jennifer Connelly is amazing in her character. It is so sad to see just what she puts herself through to keep her drug addiction. It's even sadder, to me, that men use women like this to satisfy their perversity. When I had my addiction, I found myself in many shady places, with many shady people. Looking back, being so young and naïve, I put myself in a lot of danger. Again, some of us are the lucky ones who come out safe on the other side. I doubt many do. Jared Leto plays the main character who is in love with Jennifer Connelly, but they both obviously have drug addictions. I won't go into much detail about what happens with him in the movie, other than to say he was superb, as he always is in his acting roles. I adore Jared Leto. I didn't watch him much in movies or shows when he was young, I missed out on that. I really fell in love with Jared's voice. The 30 Seconds to Mars album, "A Beautiful Lie" won me over. Jared's voice is so dynamic. He can reach high and low notes with a smoothness so out of character for that sort of music. He can scream like hell and reach so high with so much volume and intensity it gives me chills. I can get lost in his music. Then there's his beauty. Yes, beauty. He's got one of those faces that is so perfect, so structurally beautiful, he can't be described as handsome. There isn't a ruggedness to his face. His eyes are soulful, light blue and big. His mouth is perfectly proportioned with just the perfect natural shade of pink. Even when he has full facial hair he's beautiful. He's definitely on my man-crush list. So if you haven't watched "Requiem of a Dream", I recommend you do. Just be prepared to watch something more uplifting afterwards. Seinfeld is always a good choice. "I'm out there Jerry, and I'm LOVIN' every minute of it! - Kramer" Since I haven't blogged in a while, and since I don't have much to say, I'll just whine a little. (Ok, A lot....)
I wish I was on vacation. Somewhere so far away that it takes an entire day to travel there. I want to feel my toes in the sand, or in a lake, or feel my feet on the deck of a private boat. Yes. Yes please. I want to have enough wine to where my glass is never empty. I want to breathe in salty sea air or fresh mountain air. So Cal air is so gross. I try not to think about it or else I start to get anxiety. Have you ever flown into Ontario Airport in the summer? Especially coming from somewhere beautiful like Minnesota where everything is green and abound by lakes. It's like descending into a pit of brown. The terrain is brown. The air is brown. It's rather depressing. Onto the next whine. (I wish I had a full glass of wine while I whine too!) I am trying to break my addiction to sunflower seeds. Spitz Cracked Black Pepper to be exact. Yesterday I had some David's Extra Spicy Seeds and they were so salty my tongue now feels as if I ran it across the desert sand with shards of glass mixed in it. The Spitz aren't as salty and they have the best flavor in my opinion, but nevertheless, they still hurt my poor tongue. I am what you call an addictive personality. It's all or nothing for me. So yesterday I threw away my stash of several bags of seeds and today I am a seed free girl. Yay! What was up with Puig in the Home Run Derby? I had such high hopes for him. I think we all know he can hit the hell out of the ball. The announcers said maybe it was nerves. I don't know what it was, but I didn't like it. I hope he can redeem himself today and be the true All-Star he is. Come on Yasiel, bring back Puigapalooza Por Favor! Sé el All-Star que eres! Last whine for the day. MasterChef's Courtney Lapresi. I CAN'T STAND HER. I haven't had this much loathing for a person on TV since Tony Vlachos (Survivor) and Juan Pablo (The Bachelor). She is SO CONCEITED and SO ANNOYING and SO EVIL. I seriously want to pull her off her pedestal and stick her high heels in each of her eyes. I read another blog (http://www.stockingblue.com/tag/courtney-lapresi/) where the author calls her "Cuntessa". I am not a fan of the beginning of that word in most cases, but boy does it fit here. On top of that, her choice of lipstick color is beyond obnoxious. It seems that Gordon has a bit of an infatuation with her and makes her feel like the Queen of England. I don't know why. He usually doesn't have tolerance for such people. All I know is I hope she chokes on all of her hate mail. She's got to have a ton of it! Now...Go take on the day. Representing my favorite teams in my office! I am reserving room on the right for when the Dodgers win the World Series (Let's Go Dodgers!) Baseball was always my favorite sport. I still love it, but boy am I missing the excitement of Hockey already. I love my new pennant of the Kings - those toothless smiles, the beards...so much to be proud of!
I was married into being a Rams fan - I will admit. I did attend a game in 1994 against the LA Raiders, of all teams. I think there was a stabbing and whole lot of fights. Seriously. But when they moved to St Louis, I just kinda followed them because there were no other LA Football teams and I refused to follow the Raiders. Thankfully they moved to Oakland I think that next year. The most fun I've had being a Rams "fan" were attending games in San Francisco against the 49ers. I loved how many Rams fans were tailgating! It was so awesome - especially when we won! These days I am a FANTASY Football fan. This will be my 4th season managing "First & Girl" - hoping to have learned a lot of hard lessons the past few years and come out with the perpetual trophy this year! Our draft is already next month and before I know it, my Sundays, Monday nights and Thursday nights will be my favorite parts of the week! I think I will have to make a "Fantasy Football" Category soon...I feel it coming... In case you're wondering why I have so many notes on my bulletin boards, I work for a University for the Undergraduate Associated Students. I know I have mentioned how much I love my job, and they are the reason why. Whenever they graduate a part of me gets sad - but I have my memories of them all around my office. What you see here is just one wall. There are reminders everywhere of students I have become close to in the past. Each unique, wonderful, driven, talented and ever so smart. I am lucky to be in the midst of such high achieving young individuals. It fills my heart with joy. Now....Dodgers you better win in Colorado! Don't lose your recent MOJO! Beat the COCKY ROCKIES! Finally, Happy Independence Day! “You have to love a nation that celebrates its independence every July 4th, not with a parade of guns, tanks, and soldiers who file by the White House in a show of strength and muscle, but with family picnics where kids throw Frisbees, the potato salad gets iffy, and the flies die from happiness. You may think you have overeaten, but it is patriotism.” — Erma Bombeck |
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